Are you on the faith roller coaster right now? Sometimes riding high and in the very next minute in the dip? Maybe you are going around the bend so fast you don’t know where to look.
Here’s a look inside my head: “God will end this soon. This will all get fixed in 14 days...I mean 45 days. It’s gonna get better, right? Where is he? Why isn’t he coming? Of course, he loves us. Does he even care? Why is this taking so long? I should enjoy this time. I am going CRAZY!!!!!”
In John, chapter 11, we read about two sisters named Martha and Mary who probably had very similar thoughts. You see, their brother, Lazarus, died. But before that actually happened, he got really sick. The two sisters sent word for Jesus to come and heal their brother.
Jesus didn’t come. At least not right away. In fact, Lazarus was in the tomb four days before Jesus made it on scene. It must have felt like an eternity while the family waited for their only hope to get there.
As soon as he shows, Martha runs out to Jesus and says, “Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died. But I know even now God will give you whatever you ask.”
Jesus says to her, “your brother will rise again."
Martha replies, “I know he will rise again in the resurrection on the last day.”
I’ve been wrestling with this whole interaction since I read it a few days ago. Isn’t Martha’s response so much like our own? She wants desperately to believe Jesus will come and save the day. But she wants him to do it her way in her timing before Lazarus dies. And when Jesus does show up, she does this wishy-washy thing with her words. She says she knows Jesus would have healed her brother, and that she knows God can do something about it even now that he’s dead. Then, Martha assumes that Jesus won’t do anything because he hasn’t yet.
Flip flop, flip flop.
Ugh. I am totally wishy-washy. I desperately want Jesus to fix this whole pandemic thing. I want to believe he will solve it when I pray, like in that moment. When he doesn’t do it how I want, I begin to doubt if he ever will.
‘’I AM the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?” - John 11:25
He’s doesn't just fix things so it goes back to what we deem as normal. He makes dead things live again.
We have to stop putting expectations on him to make it all go away and focus on what He is trying to bring to life within us. What are the things He wants to resurrect within you and those around you. If we all look within, we might have some good stories to tell others when we all “get out of our tombs.”
March 30, 2020